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Most of the time jCrunch is disgusted with the world, the devastation of the planet, at the hands of industrialized civilization. Sometimes, she has joy attacks- she has a great community in a beautiful place. She is enchanted and hopeful by what wildness remains and the parascopes created in her imagination. Lamenting fantastical bullshit in the third person, plotting to restructure the world, reconciling the painful with embellishment via narrative, writing as to make the beautiful visible, running, biking, and hiking. She tries her best to evade the identity police, is fond of pronoun game, keeping her shnoz warm inside books and zines, radical shit (fuck politics), people, polyamory and other queer eccentrics. Broccoli, beets, brussels sprouts and garlic are the keys to her heart.

it’s killing time

notes from a sick fuck

you lived in my heart like
a small vibrant russian doll.

in my periphery
the ceiling rippled and
i thought i was drowning at the 
bottom of a pool,
the pressure was so much.
so much immune system
parading through my limbs.
triumph over this sickness.
heart rhythm parade.
boost.

i tend to entertain multiple crushes at once. people are amazing and i have a great capacity for loving feelings, also i think i do this to keep myself warm and fuzzy inside. i am suspicious that it could be self sabotaging since i rarely act on any of them. do you have similar experiences? can you speak on this at all?

Letter To The Woman Who Stopped Writing Me Back

I wanted you to be the first to know - Harper & Row
has agreed to publish my collected letters to you.

The tentative title is Exorcist in the Gym of Futility.

Unfortunately I never mailed the best one, 
which certainly was one of a kind.

A mutual friend told me that when I quit drinking, 

I surrendered my identity in your eyes.

Now I’m just like everybody else, and it’s so funny, 

the way monogamy is funny, the way
someone falling down in the street is funny.

I entered a revolving door and emerged
as a human being. When you think of me
is my face electronically blurred? 

I remember your collarbone, forming the tiniest
satellite dish in the universe, your smile
as the place where parallel lines inevitably crossed.

Now dinosaurs freeze to death on your shoulder.

I remember your eyes: fifty attack dogs on a single leash, 
how I once held the soft audience of your hand.

I’ve been ignored by prettier women than you, 
but none who carried the heavy pitchers of silence
so far, without spilling a drop. 

Jeffrey McDaniel

StopHatingYourBody: Application for a new moderator!

stophatingyourbody:

It’s that time! I’m pretty much swamped with finals and I could use some help managing the queue, so with Annie’s go-ahead I’m going to start taking applications for a new moderator!

As I’ve said before, we’re especially looking to add new and different perspectives,…

CIA 'tortured and sodomised' terror suspect, human rights court rules

sinidentidades:

CIA agents tortured a German citizen, sodomising, shackling, and beating him, as Macedonian state police looked on, the European court of human rights said in a historic judgment released on Thursday.

In a unanimous ruling, it also found Macedonia guilty of torturing, abusing, and secretly imprisoning Khaled el-Masri, a German of Lebanese origin allegedly linked to terrorist organisations.

Masri was seized in Macedonia in December 2003 and handed over to a CIA “rendition team” at Skopje airport and secretly flown to Afghanistan.

It is the first time the court has described CIA treatment meted out to terror suspects as torture.

“The grand chamber of the European court of human rights unanimously found that Mr el-Masri was subjected to forced disappearance, unlawful detention, extraordinary rendition outside any judicial process, and inhuman and degrading treatment,” said James Goldston, executive director of the Open Society Justice Initiative.

He described the judgment as “an authoritative condemnation of some of the most objectionable tactics employed in the post-9/11 war on terror”. It should be a wake-up call for the Obama administration and US courts, he told the Guardian. For them to continue to avoid serious scrutiny of CIA activities was “simply unacceptable”, he said.

Jamil Dakwar, of the American Civil Liberties Union, described the ruling as “a huge victory for justice and the rule of law”.

The use of CIA interrogation methods widely denounced as torture during the Bush administration’s “war on terror” also came under scrutiny in Congress on Thursday. The US Senate’s select committee on intelligence was expected to vote on whether to approve a mammoth review it has undertaken into the controversial practices that included waterboarding, stress positions, forced nudity, beatings and sleep and sensory deprivation.

The report, that runs to almost 6,000 pages based on a three-year review of more than 6m pieces of information, is believed to conclude that the “enhanced interrogation techniques” adopted by the CIA during the Bush years did not produce any major breakthroughs in intelligence, contrary to previous claims. The committee, which is dominated by the Democrats, is likely to vote to approve the report, though opposition from the Republican members may prevent the report ever seeing the light of day.

The Strasbourg court said it found Masri’s account of what happened to him “to be established beyond reasonable doubt” and that Macedonia had been “responsible for his torture and ill-treatment both in the country itself and after his transfer to the US authorities in the context of an extra-judicial ‘rendition’”.

In January 2004, Macedonian police took him to a hotel in Skopje, where he was kept locked in a room for 23 days and questioned in English, despite his limited proficiency in that language, about his alleged ties with terrorist organisations, the court said in its judgment. His requests to contact the German embassy were refused. At one point, when he said he intended to leave, he was threatened with being shot.

“Masri’s treatment at Skopje airport at the hands of the CIA rendition team – being severely beaten, sodomised, shackled and hooded, and subjected to total sensory deprivation – had been carried out in the presence of state officials of [Macedonia] and within its jurisdiction,” the court ruled.

It added: “Its government was consequently responsible for those acts performed by foreign officials. It had failed to submit any arguments explaining or justifying the degree of force used or the necessity of the invasive and potentially debasing measures. Those measures had been used with premeditation, the aim being to cause Mr Masri severe pain or suffering in order to obtain information. In the court’s view, such treatment had amounted to torture, in violation of Article 3 [of the European human rights convention].”

In Afghanistan, Masri was incarcerated for more than four months in a small, dirty, dark concrete cell in a brick factory near the capital, Kabul, where he was repeatedly interrogated and was beaten, kicked and threatened. His repeated requests to meet with a representative of the German government were ignored, said the court.

“I think at this point in our world, we’ve got a really confused idea of the way gender and sexuality works. I think we’ve created this really superfluous sort of like binary in the way we think about gender. And I guess I identify as queer because I don’t identify with that. I think that makes us less whole as people. I don’t need to be assigned to what it is I can do or who I can love. And it seems like we keep drawing these battle lines which are completely unnecessary. So that’s what I basically mean. When I say I’m queer, I’m saying that I think human beings are amazing. And love is an honor and an opportunity. And a fragile thing. A fragile process in which there’s no room for doubt, or shame, or hatred.” —Ezra Miller